Ch-ch-ch-changes....

So as I was unpacking my trunk this morning (to take in a reusable bag full of things to keep me busy since my job is absolutely no challenge whatsoever and, in fact, I've had nothing to do for the last six weeks), I realized that I was holding in my hands two things that should indicate to me what my passions in life really are: my International Sports Sciences Association text book for finishing my personal training certification and "Create Your Writer's Life: A Guide to Writing with Joy and Ease" by Cynthia Morris http://www.journeyjuju.com. On that note, I am exploring ways that I can combine my love of fitness and sports with a career in writing. I think I shall begin with chronicling my last three weeks of training for my very first 5k http://www.mrsnv.com/evt/home.jsp?id=2015#. I am actually quite nervous about this as I have never run a race before, and only recently got into running (even though I've been an athlete all my life, my running was more like a giant slug trying to cross a sidewalk). Keki says he will be there to support me, and I am grateful for that, but I wish I had someone to run the race with. Oh well, I guess I'll just get out there and be my little miss competitive self and try to kill myself running 3.1 miles like an Olympian. (Guess what. There is no way in hell I will finish 3.1 miles in less than 15 minutes, but I will damn sure be happy to finish under 35!).

So I had this wonderful conversation with my two-year old niece this morning, who wanted to talk to Keki and not to me, and she was absolutely hilarious. She was trying to show me the owie on her knee through the phone and was coloring on her legs. Oh, the joy of children! I really love being with her and my nephew and sometimes I seriously question my decision not to have children yet. I suppose all women must question whether or not they are going to be good mothers. My need to be the best and never fail (ha ha ha) forces me to see myself for all the things I lack that a mother would need: patience, time, a willingness to give up sleep. But I just can't convince myself that I don't want kids, even though I think I'll be that terrible, over-bearing parent that pushes their child to have a 4.5 GPA, be the star athlete, a concert pianist, and student body president.....but who ends up muttering to him or herself dressed in dirty rags standing on some corner, brain addled by the "pressure from Mom". Ugh. Can't anything ever be easy?

I am seriously considering a complete career change with an attempt at financing it through personal training. I started working on getting my certification last year after I quit ICE (Immigration and Customs Enforcement for those of you not in the know) and never finished the test. Queen of Procrastination, anyone? So, I am determined to finish it by the end of the month and then I have to get CPR certified again, get this technical editing job I found and a job as a personal trainer (shouldn't be that hard, I see a million places hiring for them). Then I'll be all set to find time to become a free-lance fitness writer and travel to wonderful fitness spas all over the world and train for fun athletic events (like triathlons and whatnot....maybe even the Iron Woman one of these days). Sounds like my best life plan yet! And, since I'll be a free-lance writer, I can have a kid (or two) and stay home with them. This just keeps getting better and better! Seriously though, upon suggestion of all this to a dear and (very) honest friend, he suggested that I just throw the towel in on all of it and become a life planner. Ha! It's taken me 30 years to figure out my life plan. So, maybe if you hand your newborn over to me, I'll have it all figured out for them once they get their PhD and have a family of their own.

Has anyone tried the Dole fruit parfaits? I wasn't sure about purchasing them until I discovered that their calorie and sugar content was within the mildly acceptable range. Best. Thing. Ever. The apple ones taste like the inside of an apple pie and they work great for a dessert. Don't even have to be refrigerated. Love 'em.

So a couple days ago John McCain said that our economic building blocks were still strong. Then, after less than 24 hours of being brought back to reality by the media and the Obama campaign, he rephrases and says that the economy is in trouble and that his party is the only one that can fix it. Sound like Bush to anyone else? I was watching one of the news channels last night that was playing in the women's locker room at 24 Hour Fitness while I was changing for my kickboxing class and they were pointing out the fact that everyone that Sarah Palin has on her team of advisors are former Bush advisors. Now, if they were able to make Bush brainwash the American public into electing him twice, I am ever so slightly concerned about what they may be able to get Palin to do. She's already a gun-toting, evangelical, MILF -- now she has the power of persuasion on her side with a bunch of lying, cheating scumbags? I really hope that the voting women of this country are not so dumb and mesmerized by the prospect of a woman, any woman, getting into the White House, that they elect McCain/Palin. Instead of making ourselves the butt of many more jokes abroad, why not wait until the RIGHT woman comes along -- not some woman who is so far right that Louis Farrakhan is scared of her. Honestly, this woman scares me. More than Hillary Clinton does -- and I really don't trust Hillary. Please people, research how these candidates really stand on the topics before making a decision. I don't think we need more guns and more unwanted babies in this world.

Peace